“Amazing Grace, how sweet the sound,
That saved a wretch like me….
I once was lost but now am found,
Was blind, but now, I see.

T’was Grace that taught…
my heart to fear.
And Grace, my fears relieved.
How precious did that Grace appear…
the hour I first believed.

Through many dangers, toils and snares…
we have already come.
T’was Grace that brought us safe thus far…
and Grace will lead us home.

The Lord has promised good to me…
His word my hope secures.
He will my shield and portion be…
as long as life endures.

When we’ve been here ten thousand years…
bright shining as the sun.
We’ve no less days to sing God’s praise…
then when we’ve first begun.

“Amazing Grace, how sweet the sound,
That saved a wretch like me….
I once was lost but now am found,
Was blind, but now, I see.

This song has always touched me in a profound way.  Even in addiction, hard times, or the abuse, I always related to this song.  Saved a wretch like me.  That was me, I miserable and unhappy.  Once I stepped out of myself and my situations that’s when the words, was blind, but now, I see came into play.  We are so blinded to our lives and what we are doing, not only to ourselves, but to other’s.  We never take the time, were all caught up in our self to even care to what’s happening to our kids.  It’s such warped thinking.  I want everyone to stand from a place where they can see, even if you haven’t faced any adversity, I bet that you have done something wrong, or hurtful, without even recongnizing it.  Stand back, think about it, and see now, have grace.  Have grace, for what is your life without it.  Get to that moment in your life where you can relate to these words.  It is, Amazing Grace

MOTIVE:

Something that causes a person to act in a certain way, do a certain thing, ect.

The goal or object of a person’s actions

What is your motive?  Do you have a motive?  Is your motive good or bad?

Most people when they hear the word motive they automatically think revenge or something negative.  I want everyone to have a positive motive, motive in how you treat other people, how you live your life.  Have a positive motive in your community, especially this time of year.  I’m not rich by any means, and I know that there’s someone out there struggling harder than I am, and I know that it’s my job to motivate, not only myself but others.   So live your life in positive motivation and help someone else, or just help yourself in a positive way

You know the old cleche’ “When life gives you lemon’s, make lemonade”.  You know sometimes that’s true, and sometimes you can’t make anything out of them, because what your going through makes no sense.  Sometimes before you can make that lemonade, you have to sort through all of he muck that your life or situation is.  There’s times when it’s necessary to go through issue’s and pain, to have to digest it, to marinate on it, shall we say, to figure out our next move, you never want to “move” or make a desision to quickly, or in haste.  But investigate your situation, weigh all options, remember that your decisions might affect others.  I used to run completely on impulse, OMG, that’s all I can say about that.  I say investigate, because no matter if your going through something, or your renting/buying a house, wouldn’t you check it out first?  or if your going to make a change in your life, personal/career wouldn’t you see what the future could hold, or at least ask someone who has?  So yes have a lemonade hopefully in the future you can drink a glass all the time, but in the mean time, think through all of your action’s, you will come out on top, and feeling much greater for the time you sat down and thought about your decision making.

Sometimes I’m inspired to write about something that I’ve discussed with someone else, 99% of what I write comes from what I’ve been through or what I’m currently going through.  I was discussing an issue of trust and truth with someone the other day and decided to discuss or share with you.  This person is going through some things and is scared to tell her significant other for the fear that he might run, now its just financial and a few personal things, nothing like cheating or anything like that, nothing that if she discussed it with him should or would make him run, and if he did, he wasn’t the right one in the first place.  You have to be open in honest with your partner/spouse what ever your situation is.  Heck I told my husband when I met him, that I was crazy and messed up, my kids were crazy and messed up and he better run or plant his feet firmly, thank God he chose to plant his feet.  My point is you have to let your significant other in on what’s going on in your life, heck especially now everyone needs all the support they can get.  Don’t ever be afraid to lean on your spouse or partner that’s what their there for.  If they can’t stick is out in mildly hard times, how are they going to do with really hard times, let them in, find out what your relationship can withstand.  Better knowing now than learning to late in the future.

You know Thanksgiving is coming up, and do we really know what thanksgiving is all about?  Do you practice it daily, or even weekly?  Thanksgiving has nothing to do with turkey’s or pilgrims.  In thinking about thanksgiving you need to re-examine the word.  Giving Thanks….. thats what thanksgiving is all about.  Right now most of us are going through some tough times, and its hard to give thanks about anything, including me.  There’s times when we’ll have a pitty party and hang out for a while, heck I’ve thrown a few myself, I just try not to stay awhile.  I’m human just like everyone else, you can get rid of your demons but life still goes on, you still have ups and downs.  Some of us ride ruff seas, while some of us have smooth sailing.   Whatever the case might be for you, don’t for get your thanksgiving no matter how small or how big they come.  Some of you have a new life, some of you can go on for another day, that’s thanksgiving.

You know that you have made it out of the pit when you have peace within yourself.  I’m not saying that you’ll never have a bad day, but when you have grown and discovered that you can live a different life, and step outside the circle that was your life and look within and say to yourself, what was I thinking?  You’ll discover unbelievable peace, there’s nothing better.  Like I said, you will have bad days, I’ve had plenty, that’s just part of life, but there’s nothing like growing as a person.  So continue to grow, learn and keep pushing through for that eternal peace.

Well were officially onto the holiday season.  Some of us are saying yeah!!! well some of us are dreading it.  I was always in dread, anything and everything that was a negative always  seemed to happen around the holiday time.  I was like so many of you and had seasonal depression.  As soon as October hit, my mind went into overload, it was stupid now that I think about it.  I spent so much time and energy into thinking about how bad this time of year was, that I didn’t think about all the wonderful things that did happen.  Oh Me, Oh My…… that was my attitude.  I think that I set myself up so bad that after awhile,  how could I let anything good in, or happen?  I set myself up for failure.  I know that a lot of bad things have happened to me, but they just didn’t happen to me for 2 or 3 months out of the year.  You have to focus on the positive not the negative other wise you’ll be missing out on life, and something wonderful can pass by and you wont even notice.  Lift your heads, stand strong, look around you at all of the amazement that is happening at this time of year, it will warm your heart up.  Break free of that thought that gets into your head and brings you down, there is a lot of  thanksgiving out there, you have some, think about it, and you’ll come up with some.

We come into this world so wide eyed and innocent, no judgement, no pain or hard exterior.  Were trusting and loving, we have no prejudice.  We are free, we play, we have no worries.  Everything new to us is looked at with excitement.  Than one day some of us wake up and wonder where all of that went to.  Some of us experience judgement, pain, prejudices, we grow a hard exterior, an exterior so thick that nothing can penetrate it.  We quit growing, loving, no more wide eyed innocence.  Where did it go? It saddens me so to see people like that.  That was once me,  find your innocence again, learn to laugh again, start to trust again and with that trust love will find it’s way.  You’ll always have worries, unfortunately that’s part of growing up and becoming wiser.  But play, laugh, love and let people in.  Experience, and look through those wide eyes that were once innocent.

It takes so long to get your life into a big mess, it’s going to take a long time to get your life out of the mess. Don’t give up, your gonna make it.  It will happen, good things to come never manifest overnight. So here are a few simple things that you have to learn to move on in the right direction of making that life you want, manifest……

1) I’m never gonna give up
2) I’m going to learn to control my emotions
3) I’m going to learn to control my mouth
4) I’m going to learn to love, myself and others
5) I’m taking back control

The only way out, is through…..which means you have to push through to get through your hard times, you have to be able to walk through the door of pain, hurt or self destruction. Once that door is finally open, walk through it, shut it and learn from it.  Brighter futures are available in everyone’s life, I’m a witness to that, like I’ve said, it wont come over night, but it will come, you have to want it.

Here is a poem I found, this is exactly how I felt sometimes, and I know that someone out there is or has felt this way too.  But there is hope, so never give up.

 

 

If you need a place, in this reality
Just to be yourself, while everything seems awfully
To cry, to scream, to relief your heart
When you feel your world is falling apart
I will be right here, to wait and hope
And I will gently remove the rope
Which lies and tightens around your neck
Pull you away, and of course I’ll check
The light in your eyes is fading away
Turning black, turning cold, clearly with dismay
Your heart feels far away, gone to disappear
I want you to stay, I want you near
I smile at you, and try to remember
What it was like, no need to go further
Loneliness and sadness passing by
Hand in hand, with tears in the eye
Drowning in words, unnecessary pain
No need to describe, no need to complain
Your eyes are open, lightning once more
Watching, sparkling, just like before
I’ll hold you in my arms, hold you tight
Tell you, that we, together, have won this fight